We all have that point in our life....That point where we go... crap... what do I do now? Am I going in the right path? Am I at the right school? Am I dating the right person? Right Major? Job? Town? Who am I? This is so normal and one of the worst moment for all of us. Its the scariest most frustrating one too. In college, I at least, along with many people who I've talked to, almost have this feeling of we are going through this identity crisis alone. No direction. Sure there are counselors, teachers, peers, and parents. But they dont really know us, they dont know what we feel when we lay down at night, or what we dream of, or that secret to do list we really want to finish but just havent ever had someone say go ahead do it. We know in a sense what we want, or what we think we want. Thats what we pray for. Thats what we work for. But then it happens.

It doesn't work out. All of the sudden that path you were on is turning out to be completely different than what you imagined. All of the sudden your list and map of the next five years is getting messed up. Guess what. It happens. Its called life and you're not in control.

Scary right.

So I was sitting here thinking about all of this and I started getting excited. I dont know what I am doing. I dont know where I am in my life. I dont who I am in a sense. I've never been so confused. But I think I'm actually okay with that.

I think if I learn to accept the unknowingness of what, where, and who and focus on the why it will be freeing and meaningful. Let me explain. Accepting not knowing who I am means I can allow myself to become the person who God truly wants me to be and not who the world has convinced me i want to be. Accepting not knowing where I am in my life will keep me open to exploring other places that I might have been to scared to go. Accepting not knowing the what is just like the where, room to explore.

But the why is important. You need remember whose you are and WHY we do all of the whats go to the wheres and be the whos. Its to show love. If you believe that every day is filled with being a light for God and showing love and truly doing something that you feel is of huge importance than all those things that you feel need direction will all of sudden be lead. Because if we allow our day to be filled with sharing God's love and dedicate time to him, we will start seeing that us not knowing is God's way of saying let me take control.

I am not saying every thing is gonna fall into place right away or you will wake up the next morning with complete understanding of who you are. I am saying you will wake up with being free of the worry. You will wake up excited and okay with trusting that if you make your decisions based off God's teachings than you will be pretty much well off.