Monday, December 14, 2009

broken

Some one tell me something
Tell me anything
Tell me anything that makes me believe
Believe that God loves us
and when it hurts, he will heal us

I can't handle not being able to fix this.
I can't handle not being able to heal
God I don't understand pain sometime
I know that we must push through pain and that you never promised for this to be easy, but come on
sometimes we need rest.
How to minister to those who have had to deal with nothing but pain.

God i believe in you. God i love you. How do i make them see that?


I asked a 16 year old this and she responds in a way that i use to feel
"God loves. He is. He promises. and He never lets us go. as for our suffering, we DONT always deserve it. God cares more about who we are. our character. our core. than he does our comfort. He has just reasons for everything. sometimes we'll never see them but they are there. we have to trust sometimes just because thats all we can do.

sometimes all He wants us to do and needs us to do is cling to Him. to hold fast to Him. sometimes He just wants us to discover hope and learn through intense suffering, such as death to find ourselves.

i know you know He knows best but applying that to everyday life and everyday suffering and crazy freak occurances is the probly the hardest thing we have to do as christians bc we know Hes intentionally choosing not to do something and trust means even with that knowledge bowing to His will and saying you know best. i trust theres a reason for this. i trust that something, anything good will come from this

finally, i want you to look back and remember everything that you've been through with Jesus and everything Hes done for you. i want you to look at every bad situation Hes saved you from and remember how you doubted and how each time He came through. this IS Gods love. as backwards and as crazy as that sounds, this is Gods love. bc this means Hes closer than we know this means hes holding us this means Hes coming to save the day. this is where we learn to trust him and these are the days where Hes gonna show His face. these are the days where He sings us to sleep and when we wake up Hes still there holding us and singing about how great the days to come will be."

God uses people so precisely.
once again
"remember that being a christian isnt that we dont feel pain bc of a God who blocks it
being a christian means you have crutches and glue that hold you up but we're all broken" people.